Monday, October 31, 2011

If I Were Fearless

I wish I were fearless. Imagine what I’d do then.

Actually, I do know what I’d do. I’d laugh. And joke. And grin. And smile. All without worrying about whether other people would consider it “inappropriate widow behavior”. I’d realize that I’m the one who has to deal with losing the love of my life. That I’m the one who has to go to sleep alone. Not them. And that it’s my right to decide how I want to deal with it. I’d realize that I could choose to be anything in the world. So I might as well choose to be happy.

Yeah. If I were fearless, that’s what I’d do.

10 comments:

leenasampson@hotmail.com said...

why shouldnt be ?there is no special code for "widows only".Any person can laugh grin and giggle in the public.but with decency.Times have changed, we had Sathy system in India ,todays women is not going to take all these man made rules lying down.she is leberated and free to do anything she wants to ,she doesnt need to fear anybody.so my child! go ahead enjoy life ,face it bravely, fearlessly,do all what you please but decently.

Sheryll Sampson said...

Gentlepeople,

I present to you the comment above as reason# 423091 for why I love my mommy.

I love you, mama. Typos and all.

Mehjabeen said...

Sheryll, you are brave so being fearless is not a big deal.

I love ur blog. I think i need to come down Blore just to tell u tht in person.

Shivonne Sampson said...

You ain't got nothing to fear, lovey. It's your life, so feel free to think what you want, feel what you want. Anyone who denies that privilege is just bound to end up unhappy. And you don't deserve that :)

Nisreen said...

Choose fearless, choose happiness, choose Sheryl-ness.. Choose all & more; what you bravely see is no easy cup of tea for any man/woman/being.. We as readers/friends/family are more than amazed at your thoughts for love, life & more.. Keep soaring gal!!

PS: Your maa's the sweetest, kindest..

Anonymous said...

In the end, nothing else matters, except you, your thoughts, your perspective, your actions and your life! To hell with everyone else!

Go girl! Go fearless!

Tanisha Christo said...

Sheryll- sending you one big virtual hug! Fearless or not, to me you're already a hero. :)

Anupama Philip said...

Dear Sheryll,
I was reading your blog yesterday while you were you were on stage. I really did not know how to speak to you all these days. If there is any art I need to learn, I guess that should be the one. I bumped into your blog last year and last week someone suggested I read it again.
2 years ago I lost something that I ‘hoped’ I had. 12 years ago, I lost my dad. These were the 2 times in life that I felt loss, grief, doubt but one thing was so sure that God was in control. My boss once asked me how I could be so cheerful when things go so totally against my plans. I cant forget my answer that I know God is watching, He knows it all, He just knows what I am going through and empathizes. It is no longer a problem because His plans are different from my own. When I thought I was witnessing to someone, I actually witnessed to myself and felt so comforted.
What happens in our lives is a choice that we consciously make. There are circumstances that are beyond our scope of control. God permits those situations. God wants you to be happy and cheerful and fulfil the purpose that He has for your life – individually; with a content heart. A sad countenance might only exhibit dismay, doubt and all the negative things in this world. A cheerful Sheryl will witness that you accept the circumstances, learn through the experience , completely trust that God has a special plan for you & has prepared you for that and most of all that you will not waste anymore time in self pity and will progress with God’s calling.
“A father of the fatherless, and a judge of the widows, is God in his holy habitation “Ps 68.5. Only God can judge you, Sheryl; no one else. And about being fearless- you are right, if the human race stops living by fear of man and lives only by fear of God, our lives would have been so different. And yes the only ‘appropriate behaviour’ for any one is the following of God’s commandments and we are thoroughly guided by the Spirit of prophecy.
Love Always,
Candy

Shimi said...

I missed this blog and can't find it. :(

Shimi said...

I missed this blog and can't find it. :(